In The Mess

Sunset at Bulldog Rock, AZ

In 2014 I moved to Arizona.

We had a plan of the husband working for a few months in oil up here in North Dakota and then following. I was just heading down before him since the plan to move was already in motion. 8 months later I moved back to Minot…

Tell God your plans and watch Him laugh.

But GOD…He knew exactly what He was doing in leading the husband to have me go without him. I believe with all my heart that without those 8 HARD months my relationship with the Lord wouldn’t be what it is today. While there I learned more about Him and I then I ever would have staying in the comfort of Minot.

There were more days spent on my knees praying, begging God to help us through that season of uncertainty than I can count. Not in our marriage, that was never in question, but just in what we were going to do. Was I going to move back? Was he going to move down? Was medical school actually going to happen? (Spoiler alert, he decided not to go to med school…but that is a whole different story.)

In the midst of those prayers God opened my eyes and heart to see that being a filmmaker was what I was meant to do with my life. While working part time at Victoria’s Secret I met a girl, Jessica, that was going to ASU for filmmaking…you can only imagine how fast we became friends. She introduced me to a whole group of people that I am still connected to today and that is not a coincidence.

And then in one tear filled, Holy Spirit lead night, I wrote my first short film UN-MESSY. It’s a “silent” film, so not that hard to write, but I could see every piece of that film play out in my head over and over.

It took another 2+ years before that film would come to fruition.

Over 2 years of thinking about, talking about, praying about…2+ years of KNOWING this is what I was meant to do and trying to figure out the HOW. But GOD…He is so incredibly faithful. He provided the funds…$100 total, the cast (all of 2 people), the crew (Oh Chris…I will always be thankful for our friendship) and the location.

I knew within my very bones that I was supposed to do this, knew that I was meant to create, to share His truths with the world. It’s in moments where I doubt that I cling to that truth with white knuckles. That I think back on those times and re-read old journal entries from that season to hear Him say “Yes, THIS…”. God is a kind and loving God, and where 1000% everything is meant to be about Him, He calls us to participate in telling HIS story and in sharing HIS glory with the world.

We get to be collaborators with Him and that is by far the most amazing thing ever.


Adventure Awaits – You just have to say yes to the invitation.

Let’s get one thing straight, I should have stuck with my blog that I started in 2014. I honestly wonder where I would be right now if I had. What kind of things would I be doing? Where would I be in this career? Who would I have met and what would I be doing?

I don’t want to just think about being a part of – or just talk about being a part of – I want to actually be DOING!

I don’t want to miss out on the adventure of whatever it is God has ahead of me.

James 2:17 says "So also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead."

I remember thinking years ago that if I didn’t know all the details, if I didn’t see the full picture then it was pointless because I needed to know that I was doing, what I was called to, in order to DO THE THING…I was needing God to send me a neon sign saying that what I was doing was right, that I was on the correct path and moving in the direction He wanted/needed me to be on.

But the truth of the matter is that I probably wouldn’t listen if there was a neon sign. I mean I have been given confirmation OVER and OVER and OVER again that I am meant to make movies for a living. I am meant to share the Gospel through pictures whether they are still or moving, and I still don’t do certain things so not sure what that neon sign would have done.

Well I’m done waiting – I’m taking a leap of faith and trusting that no matter what, God won’t push me off the edge of the cliff. If I’m wrong, He’ll guide me – nudge me back to the right path.

Let the adventure begin!!